mothers

it's weird that i'm doing this now, when i feel more stressed than ever, but i really think this was put on my heart today while i was riding the train. ever wonder how bizzarely wonderful a family is? i guess especially for me, it's just me and my mom. this is the one person on earth who i can go to and always feel loved--the person who houses me, feeds me, takes care of me, talks to me and provides for me. if i were to go to some stranger's house, they would think im some total weirdo and close the door. but when i go home, my mom doesn't think it's weird that i'm there. when i think about it, we're just two souls of the many billions on this planet. we could be thousands of miles apart and feel like strangers in the world. yet when we are together, we know each other and love each other as if we were the only ones that mattered to us. it's that special bond that i have with no one else in the entire world. i know it seems so obvious, but it meant so much more to me today. maybe it's because i realize that i need her more now than ever before. maybe it's because i realize more of the sacrifice she made for her only child as a widowed mother with not much money. maybe it's because i continue to realize that she loves me more than i think. but when's the last time i've stopped and taken a step back in the moment and realized what she means to me, and how she tries to love me? i need to give my mother more attention... mom, i love you